I dont “transition” easily. There – I said it.
Maybe some of you can relate? The two key times of the day when transitioning can become a challenge for me are leaving the house in the morning and then coming home in the evening. These two events are simple enough… but many days I still feel “harried”. In the morning I get up early and immediately start fussing about – starting laundry, emptying garbages, preparing breakfast, packing lunches, feeding the dog, etc…. normal, everyday crap that millions of people do. And truthfully -its not that I have any trouble doing them – its that I get so wrapped up in accomplishing these tasks (ones that could easily go undone if necessary) that I allow my demeanor to become stressed and chaotic. Some days by the time I drop my daughter at school she (and her father) perceive that mommy is “stressed”. Not exactly a smooth, calming start to the day, huh?
Then in the late afternoon/evening it can be even worse. Somehow, everyday I manage to come home with a car full of ??? I dont even know what all – backpack, work bags, lunch boxes, groceries, target bags (oh boy!), dry cleaning, etc. So just getting in the door takes several trips. The dog is always waiting – not so patiently- to go out, dinner needs to be fixed, that laundry from the morning never got folded, recycling/garbages need to go out, packages at the front door (okay so I sort of look forward to that part), dishes in the sink. Again – routine crap I know you are all dealing with. But, nonetheless, it often results in a mom/wife that seems aggitated when she walks in the door. Not exaclty a pleasnat way to greet your family, huh?
Now, in my defense, if you give me 15 minutes then I can settle in and “act normal” again. These transitions I’m describing are short-lived. But for these 2 brief periods of the day, if I’m not careful, I get myself all in a “dither” and then regret making my family feel as though I am unhappy. Those of you who may experience anxiety or Type A personality traits that cause you to act like I am describing will know that this does not in any way mean I am unhappy! Anxiety/Stress/whatever you want to call it does not correlate to happiness or unhappiness. These are separate things. But – admittedly, thats hard for others to see and understand sometimes.
So – what to do? I am an organized gal and I beleive I am pretty good at organizing my time and tasks. I suspect the problem in the morning is simply trying to do too much. And in the evening I should be better at letting all of my “to-do’s” just wait a bit. I can get to them later, right? In theory this makes 100% good sense to me – but in action I am a whirling dervish, trying to get 10 things done at once so I can “relax”. Although I’m not really a good “relaxer” if we are still confessing? Developing a morning meditation practice might do wonders for me (something I’ve blogged about here http://fitandfabyogi.com/?p=129) but I cant seem to make it happen. I’m too busy doing relatively unimportant tasks that I can’t – WON’T – make time for it. The yogi in my knows how pathetic that is.
The good news is that I’ve only recently recognized this pattern. So now perhaps I can learn to manage my transitions better. I can focus on the things that I do to trigger bad reactions and maybe modify my schedule to avoid them. Time to develop some new patterns and learn to better ease into and out of my day. Wish me luck!
I’d love to hear if you can relate to my confession? Anybody else need help with the daily transitions in their life?